Life is meaningless! i dunoe why i always have this sukky life . sometime i really really want to cry to god. Family classmate friends, all their attitude is just keep on arrowing me arrowing me and arrowing me . They dun say about my positive things but negative things.
Mother also , always always bad mood then quarrel! this morning about some stupid soup den quarrel till my negative thing . She thinks that she is so perfect! but i am not . i lousy i stupid i crappy. She said that 'You want compare compare to the top larh!!' then i was like erm. am i not top before? when i am a top in NT do you even have any present or party for me? ALL you care is SHARE SHARE SHARES GAMBLE GAMBLE GAMBLE . wdf? share drop then no mood show face to me ? ehhh come on lar. i honor you i never tell anyone leh . wdf? now you like that , how am i suppose to live? INFLUENCIAL leh . wah laos . i dun like her le larh . sob sob . She is like dragon to me larh . say i didnt respect her. she didnt even see other people. gangster all those , seriously if i din follow christ , i would be a gangster already. Today i did some things that she wants me to do. SHE SAY I DID NOT!
So .... Jing! i need some solution from you. The only true friends that i have is my cell group, church, and some of my friends . is this the worm that pastor talks about? ):
I really really can compare , yesterday is great fun but this morning is great quarrel and bad ass sad thing .
God prepares a whale , a plant , a worm and a violent east wind.
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